what would have happened
- if i had waited out the bizarre drunken silence to see if the kiss would’ve happened
- if i had made the first move
- if i had not walked away
- if i didn’t turn my head
- if i lingered longer in the hug
- if i hadn’t wasted so much time
- if i didn’t laugh off his questions
- if i listened to my friends/people when they said they always thought we’d make a good couple
- if he thinks the same things
- if he notices the small bits of sexual tension
do i have a small crush?
yes i do. i have a few actually.
am i ready to tell anyone?
no.
this one is for me to keep inside me; well, for now at least. but i will tell you this…
he makes me laugh, he makes me forget d, he is far from my usual type, he pays, he’s taller then me, he likes football, he keeps an eye out on me, including my drink, he has great eyes (i only just recently noticed them), he listens to me, he calls d a douche – most likely because he has heard me do it, and best of all he makes me feel good about me.
the only things he’s missing are the few small yet important things, the opening of doors for me (qtmama, we seem to agree on these), even when i drive, pulling out chairs, waiting for me to sit first, offering his coat, waiting for me and not walking quickly in front of me (i tend to lag a bit)… i hate to say this but d did those and a whole lot more, j used to say i was “spoiled”. i don’t want to compare because d also did a whole lot of obnoxious things over the past year, but a girl needs those little extras… and, when you’re used to them it makes it even harder to not have them around. call me old fashioned or just picky but i think those small things are important. some may say it’s about social class or upbringing but i think they are pretty important things and they definitely make me feel like a lady. or maybe i’m just spoiled
oh well, maybe he’ll learn and in the meantime i’ll let out a nice long sigh and continue to wonder.
The little things matter to me also. They can make or break a situation for me
If you think for one second I don’t know who this crush is then you’re just plain silly. He couldn’t possibly do all those things because he can’t. You’re not dating. You’re not even courting. You’re just friends and FRIENDS don’t do those things. Its part of the tension. So ya gotta cut him some slack there.
He’s a nice guy. And you’re a picky bitch.
Love you!
Hmm – well babybound may have a point. Would he be the man to do those things if you’re dating him??
But yes, we do agree on these things. I’m refusing to settle – and if he doesn’t do those things, that’d be settling.
NEVER SETTLE